My crossroads you ask? Have you figured my crossroads out? Don't get too hasty now. It may not be what you think or expect from a woman of my age. Do you know how old I am? I took one of those, how old are you in mental age on Facebook not too long ago. Yes, you did too. You may not have shared it like many do. I didn't, but I took it. I was quite elated that my mental age was not my "real age". It was much, much, much younger. So therefore my crossroads. Do I act my age? Let my hair go grey? Wear granny panties? Retire from my job because I'm a Grandma? Do I stop and let life go by?
Well, let me assure you one of my favorite places to shop is Vickie's, as I call it. So NO granny panties for me. I just had my hair colored again. I do that around once a year. I do it myself the rest of the time. Yes I don't do that bad of a job. As far as work goes, that's also A NO. I have expenses. I need to build my retirement for when I'm really old. I love to see babies born. I love working with women. So that is a NO.
However where is ME in all of this? I'm busy and have been for such a longggg time. As far as I know, I'm still healthy. I've lost a little weight. We joined a gym and we actually go, except for today. We are tired because we just got back from a trip. Like I said, can I find me in all of this?
I remember this same feeling when my first baby was a year old. I was a wife, Mom, and nurse. Was there time for me? I didn't figure it out then and I've decided 30 years later I was going to try before I age further. Times are even tougher then Thirty years ago. How can "that woman" do it now and survive all that goes before her? We are exhausted. Yes we are. It doesn't matter where we live. What we do. Whether we are full time working women, or full time stay at home soccer Moms. Life is too busy.
I've decided I'm going to ponder this for a time. Hopefully you will ponder with me and we all can decide how we can live our lives peacefully and with joy. Now I didn't write with happiness. If you haven't heard or gotten the memo. Happiness is circumstantial. Joy is everlasting. It's from within. Our circumstances can change. I just now read a very sad post on Facebook. A beautiful new bride of a year who is pregnant and due next month just lost her husband due to a robbery. He was killed yesterday. I am truly devastated for this beautiful Mom to be. We all need to pray for her.
Therefore it all can change in an instant. If that happens, one must know who she is. If she does, then she won't lose herself in this thing called LIFE. It's not always a happy ending at "your" present.
Remember this. Joy does come in the morning.
Finding You. That's what I chose for my new blog. I want to continue to find me no matter what my mental or real age is. No matter my circumstance. I want to go somewhere and mean something when it's done. Do you?
Until next time. Let us find US together.
However where is ME in all of this? I'm busy and have been for such a longggg time. As far as I know, I'm still healthy. I've lost a little weight. We joined a gym and we actually go, except for today. We are tired because we just got back from a trip. Like I said, can I find me in all of this?
I remember this same feeling when my first baby was a year old. I was a wife, Mom, and nurse. Was there time for me? I didn't figure it out then and I've decided 30 years later I was going to try before I age further. Times are even tougher then Thirty years ago. How can "that woman" do it now and survive all that goes before her? We are exhausted. Yes we are. It doesn't matter where we live. What we do. Whether we are full time working women, or full time stay at home soccer Moms. Life is too busy.
I've decided I'm going to ponder this for a time. Hopefully you will ponder with me and we all can decide how we can live our lives peacefully and with joy. Now I didn't write with happiness. If you haven't heard or gotten the memo. Happiness is circumstantial. Joy is everlasting. It's from within. Our circumstances can change. I just now read a very sad post on Facebook. A beautiful new bride of a year who is pregnant and due next month just lost her husband due to a robbery. He was killed yesterday. I am truly devastated for this beautiful Mom to be. We all need to pray for her.
Therefore it all can change in an instant. If that happens, one must know who she is. If she does, then she won't lose herself in this thing called LIFE. It's not always a happy ending at "your" present.
Remember this. Joy does come in the morning.
Finding You. That's what I chose for my new blog. I want to continue to find me no matter what my mental or real age is. No matter my circumstance. I want to go somewhere and mean something when it's done. Do you?
Until next time. Let us find US together.
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